love letter...

It’s untrue when you leave imperfection and live perfection..

The night air is cool and soothing, and overhead the stars are coming out like specks of silver dust.. This same night is going to break to pieces and as it fells heavily down in its shiny pieces, I will not fail to listen to my dreams land on my shoulders. Read carefully, this is the first love letter I attend to write in my life.

Before you, I was white as a spirit. Now all I am is a stained man, stained from my own desire, and I can taste it and smell it, deep red as an undiscovered wound within. And to think I never believed in love at first sight. I gave birth of a life that could be, that took form out of early memories..

I met you on this site, the same day exactly three years ago. I saw you and I knew I had to have you. I had longed for you since the first second; I hungered you, imagined you but never tasted you. I let one by one all the castles on my body to fall and surrender to your charms. Powerless and fool since then I imagine you come close to my ear and whisper soft words. Soft like clouds, just before the sun bursts through them. Hard like reality, before the night awakens it.

I wish for a day where I could hiss those words close to your ear and you feel my hot breath tickling your skin and your heart. I never murmured it and I never shouted it. I am hearing no violins and I know you can play my every string.

Happiness consists of no desires at all and at the same time all the desires in the world. It also consists of no concerns. It’s a dreamful of floating. Humans have invented so many words to describe the exact degree in which a person pleases our senses. And you can please everything – for that I’m sure of. Whether that is a sweaty night in bed, or a sweet night out in the world. Bonded together, I can let myself become half and then connect with your half. And while every single person on this planet thinks that wishes on stars are magic, I am making wishes on you. You are my star and while they are making wishes on stars, I wish on you that I had you.

There are nights where sleep doesn’t touch me. The sun steals in my room and I watch as the light throws long fingers across the floor. It makes the curtain glow with power and my eyes hurt. And then the next minute, your name in my head feels as warm as someone’s mouth on my soft neck. Sometimes the thought of you being here hides behind my ear and whispers me your mysteries. The thought of you being here tells me that my love for you is no captivity but freedom.

I’m a writer and you know me well enough, to know that I believe that words don’t get too deep. They can’t go through the human skin. But your words are already up to my soul. I promise you now; every time u speak to me everything around will vanish. They will become one with the light in your eyes, one with the shine that they will be giving me. One beauty will be interrupted by other.

Hit my life down, throw it to my feet if you have to. Tell me that you don’t want to be here. But if this letter bounces in your head for more than a while, reach for me.. I will be here at the corner of the world. Take my dreams from the hand, and lead them to the safety of your arms.

Adam & Eve

one of the biggest facts in history of human race is what came after 'biting Eden's apple'. okay so two humans made a stupid mistake and shove down a fruit that a fool made them eat. to make it even easier for you, let me just say that the dudes ate a fucking apple for a snack, which for unverified reasons shouldn't be eaten. so what. do you make any sense out of this? because i certainly do not. what is the big fuss? their crime wasn't that bad at all if you ask me, so they get humiliated they way they did. to be dressed with costumes made of leaves?! when green wasn't even in fashion? make them look like stuffed wine leaves? to force Eve to give birth and suffer in a world with no basic medicine facilities? and poor Adam.. to go around looking for a job, when up that day was living like Prince Charles? to be thrown out their home, naked (for the record a leave is not clothing) and helpless? are we serious? is this justice? i think not!

of course, if things ended where they were kicked off that garden, the story would lose its interest. maybe a few producers would do a couple of movies about it, and it would have been all forgotten by now. the whole thing thought is that we keep paying that mistake until today. for a garden. for a snake. for an apple for Christ sake! its like a curse. we are born with it and we cant even reject it, or do something about it. it has no ending! it is making our shoulders heavy with guilds for sins we carry in our DNA!

and like that wasn't enough, we have a series of some enlightened men like Moses and St Gregory, that came and made up the hardest rules that anyone could possibly imagine. those rules are forced upon our innocent selves. ten rules the first guy, 7 deadly sins the other dude. all of the sudden there are so many that we don't know what to be scared of, what we should be scared off, what we should be careful from! confessions, guilds, punishment. and here i ask: is this life?

it is commonly accepted that we need changes. i don't know whether the politicians will do something about it, the EU, NATO, the Americans, but we are in desperate need of salvation. because, lets just face it, the world has changed. most of those rules aim to make our sin level reach the red - and we all know whose colour is that!

don't take me wrong, i am a Christian; i don't want to sound like a blasphemer. that is the last thing i want you to think. what i ask is mercy. what those dudes have done belongs to the past. what we should do is turn the page and move on. get over it if we really want to lead the humanity and other animals (snakes excluded) to Eden's garden.